I am a member….have been saved since I was 19. But I no longer feel God. I feel like He has left me, He is orchestrating and planning my downfall, He wants nothing for me but heartache and pain, when I call to Him for help He doesn’t answer…He never answers…He never helps, I don’t even think He sees me anymore, He doesn’t care how badly He’s hurting me, I know He has no good intentions for me, I know He wants me to hurt…I KNOW HE DOES, I ask him to make me numb, I’ve asked him to take the feelings away but He won’t. That’s how I know He wants me to hurt. All He wants is for me to suffer. Please ask him to make it stop….please ask him to be my friend again. Please ask him to want more for me than just pain. PLEASE….someone ANYONE HELP ME!